I Love Strawberry ShortCake :)

For those of the same generation as me, i'm sure you know and have watched strawberry shortcake cartoon when you are young. I like it so much, its so cute and so sweet .... so ger-ger ....I used to join the member's club and taken part in the colouring contest. My sis and I won the contest and got the strawberry shortcake soapbars which we can't bear to use .... only sniff them once in a while ....haha

Today the cartoon trend is back .... I still like the classic character, not the new one...I'm in search of the cosmetic pouch, coin purse and even bedsheets! Anyone know where to get? hehe .... i'm also planning to do a x-stitch and frame up to put in my bedroom of my new hse - or so i aim lah!

Just some of the pics i have of my gd friend to-date :







Really .... one of the things that cheers me up :)

A Fruitful and Wonderful Day :)

Today i had my favourite nasi lemak for breakfast ... was craving for it and i'm so glad my parents bought it. Let me tell you, its not just any other nasi lemak, its the BEST i have ever tasted. Hahaha ... wanna know where its from? Ask me!

Went to service with Sheena today. Praise and Worship was awesome today. Sang a new praise song. Presence of God was really strong, i think it helps that we were seated really near to the front. Pastor Kong preached a very good word today. My revelation - Never depend on our own strengths to fight a battle...we need to depend on the Lord to strengthen us so we can achieve above and beyond ...

Went to meet up with sec sch classmates. Purpose is to meet up as we are the chosen “姐妹”for Tabitha's upcoming wedding. Its really nice to meet up with ex-schoolmates....to see how everyone of us have changed and progressed in our lives. We did some catching up and then its down to sharing about what we know of marriage customs .... and then was down memory lane....hahah....

Here's a picture of May San, Tabi and Jeanette with me .... too bad Michelle left early and we weren't able to include here in the pic ...



Was supposed to meet Winnie to go orchard to shop for a pair of shoes to match the dress i bought for shIan's bro's wedding...but was really too tired to travel to town. Just as i was shopping at Bishan where i met the gals earlier, i happened to come across a pair that will match the dress! Am so happy!!! Not only did i managed to find the shoes (the colour of the dress is not easy to find a pair of matching shoes), but i didnt have to travel to town! so i could go back early and have a gd sleep!

What a fruitful and wonderful day :)

*This is the Day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it*

Life is about managing expectations

So stupid...here i am at 230am, eating a pack of plain biscuits (the food rationing type) when i am not even hungry! haha ...

I went to rebond my hair today ...finally, after wanting to do so for a long time, i finally made time for it. Was at the salon for about 5 hours....ended up skipping lunch and also 2 doses of my medicine....hp batt went totally dead, leaving me feeling super handicapped...was super late for cg also...seems like everything that can go wrong, went wrong!

Beyond all that, what really upset me today was that i was upset with someone who couldn't actually couldn't meet me but ended up meeting someone else. Well ...after thinking through, i concluded, life is about managing expectations. If i really didn't expect that person to meet me, maybe i wouldn't be so upset afterall .... so anyway all is cleared when i came home at midnite and had a talk with this person until now .... so its time for another dose of medicine, which is why i have to eat that pack of biscuits....hahaha

I realised i can be a very uptight person and i tend to demand a lot from the people who care for me. I am not easily contented or satisfied .... I guess i always give off my all for the people i care for and thus i demand the same kind of level of commitment from them regardless of the form they are in. I guess i just have to learn to accept it that no one is perfect, and that everyone has their down time too. Above all, i need to manage my expectations on people, i shouldn't expect the world from them ....I pray that i will have the capacity to have a bigger heart for people .... to be a BIG - HEARTED person!

By the way, 雨过天晴 - I have made up with that person :)

The Real Ones Who Care

As I am writing this, i am feeling really drowsy, gorgy and having migraine. Also coughing badly nonstop. I cannot remember when was the last time i felt so sick. But really, only when you are down and out, then you start realising who are those that really care.

I'm really touched when my sis, Sheena offered to buy me dinner instead and skipping the prayer meeting tonite she intended to go. OF course, i felt her date with God is more important, so i told her to go ahead. But really, i'm glad to see she has grown up and cares for me as her sister.

Also my dad, who came back specially in the afternoon to bring me lunch and was supposed to come back specially in the evening to fetch me to church until i told him i am too sick to go.

And Winnie, one my of good friends, who was always there to listen to my complaints and woes....she called me and was concerned. I'm so sorry i couldn't lend a listening ear to your problems and that you had to listen to me everytime even when you are down. Thank God for a friend like you in my life!

On one hand, i am feeling so blessed to have friends and family members who care, on the other i also feel the guilt about not going church for my designated service again. This means i missed singing in the choir again! Why do i have to fall sick?!?

Anyway, thank God for people in my life who care. But i guess, i still have to be independent, i still have to learn to take care of myself. i can't always be a baby ...becos not everyone has time for me all the time when i need them...i am going to try and cook some porridge ... wish me luck!

Black start, Gloom day and Fiery night

As i'm writing this, i am so glad that today is going to be over and thank God for a new day tomorrow and a new beginning to come. I am not having PMS but i am really really fed up today. So many things happened today that really pissed me off.

It all started this morning when my parents wanted me to print something, only after i shut down my computer. I on it again and wanted to wait for it to start up and went to select clothes to wear to work. And then realise i had to iron the skirt i intended to wear becos it was crumpled. The moment i switched on the iron, the electricity went off! There goes, there is a 'black out' and ya ... my precious fujitsu laptop is off without a proper shutdown, i haven't printed the things my parents needed by today, i haven't ironed the skirt i wanted to wear. Desperate, i called my dad and he insisted i should get the electricity sorted out before i go to work or the food in the refrigerator will be damaged. Anyway, to cut the story short, i was late again for work today. Much as i wanted to be early and not waste money to take cab again, i ended up having to contribute to the taximan's salary - yet again!

Anyway i was having bad cough and bodyache the whole day since yesterday. Really unable to hold it anymore, i had to skip bible study class again. God - I am really not backsliding....things just haven't been going my way.

And just when i thought the day's gloomy experiences ended, i am so pissed cos someone borrowed something from me sometime back and didn't return to me in the original form. I really can get frustrated when people borrow my things without asking, borrow and not return or borrow and return in a different shape. Don't try me.

Phew! Am breathing a sigh of relief at the turn of day and am putting on a smile as i think about the wonderful events that await tommorrow. Thank God for the blog to let me vent my frustrations .... and for patient friends like you that have read this far :)

Treasure those you love TODAY!

Today i went to visit my grandma. She is someone i am quite close to. She dotes on me a lot and had taken care of me when i was a kid. She's a great cook and a cheerful, chatty, "cartoon" grandma....always remember her with a smiley face :)She has been quite sick and when i went to visit her, she seemed to have lost quite a bit of weight. Her hands looked a bit frail. My heart aches to see her lost weight. I felt really bad that though she stays in the same apartment as me, a few floors down, i hardly make the effort to go visit her. I only seem to call her when i need to. Felt convicted that we should treasure the people we love, when we still have the opportunity to, before its too late.

Ah Ma! I Love U!

Family Time - Home Sweet Home

Yesterday.....Celebrated Sheena's bdae at Karen's place. 1st time our family gathering was "full house". We had Karen, CJ and the 2 boys - Gavin and Gareth, me and shIan, Sheena and James and of course Dad and Mum. We had lotsa food till from all over singapore ... from pizza to tu-tu to soon kueh to tiong bahru bao etc Plus Haagen Dazs ice cream cake!

Here's our family pic :




It was a wonderful get-together where, for the 1st time, we had the men to join our family of 3 princesses :). The 2 boys were so cute, when i asked who wants ice cream/cake and who wants the fire engine car, they will raise their hands, jump with joy and call me "2nd aunt" in Hokkien. When i leave and say gdbye, they tell me "come again soon!" and each gives me a hug. How adorable they are! Cute and chubby....kids are such innocent and wonderful bundle of joy. No matter how troubled or bad mood I may be, i never fail to cheer up and laugh non stop when i see them. Love them so much!

Here's close up on my 2 precious boys:




Felt so blessed. Afterwhich, dear and I went to my favourite haunt - the airport! Here's a clearer pic of us ... i hope i can lose more weight so that i will look so much slimmer beside him ...haha :p -> or my ploy is to make dear put on weight ...heheheh

Tis the season to wed

Just attended Paul's wedding about 2 weeks back and Jen's just 2 days ago. Also just heard a cousin of mine (who is 1 yr younger than me) just ROM.

Here's the pic of all the gals + the beautiful bride - Jen!




All my relatives are asking my parents (and me) if i even have a bf. Hahaha .... i used to think its pressurizing, but now i got immuned to it. Of course, hearing all my friends' wonderful stories about how their boyfriends proposed, about their diamond ring stories, about house viewing/purchase/renovations, wedding solemnisation and wedding dinner plans, photoshoots and gowns.....yes i am envious and sometimes awkward becos as my frens are stepping on to the next relam of their lives, here i am stucked behind .... as my biological clock ticks, and as pressure sets in from people around me, and together with my wonderful imaginations of my fairy-tale like future, of course i do have mixed feelings hearing all these .... on one hand happy for my pals, but the other sulking abt my own life =p.

However, when i seriously think abt it. Though my dream age to get married when i was a kid was about 25 (later 26, then 27, then 28 and now i don't dare to think!), i realised its not the age that matters. Its what the society and environment set as a standard and a norm. We should not live our lives based on what is being placed upon us! I mean getting married is a life-changing experience and its a very important decision. Yes, i do long for the companionship but i'm not sure i'm ready for all the mature decisions in life .... I guess it will come when we get there .... why worry right? hehee

Its not about hype, Its about priorities and committment and the eternal relationship

Well...i had a wonderful time at cg yesterday. Edmund gor came for make up and we had a gd time catching up. We played animal game and as usual, sotong me got forefeited. what did i have to do? well, i had to lead the grace song together with Duanlian and then come up with actions on the spot. I practically saboed myself when i exclaimed last week that coming up with the actions is "sub sub water". It was stressful at 1st, but I'm glad my cgl encouraged and spurred me on. Only then, did i realised - hey! i can be creative too! Made a pact with LY - yayyy! he will be sending me hm after cg in future...and also a date with him - yayy! my router settings in new hse will be taken care of! Thks LY!

Everytime i go for BS, CG and SVC, i always feel the joy, the encouragement and the assurance of being a child of God and being in the family of God. I have a strong desire to want to know God more, to serve God more and do greater things in the house of God. Yet, when i get back to the daily routines in life, often, the negatives of life just sets in. I start complaining, whining and i wonder, where has my relationship with God gone? Why do i seem to only be a weekend christian? Its just so hard to be disciplined to read the word of God and have our daily quiet time. Its not just abt setting time aside, but its abt the discipline and the willingness of the heart, i guess.

Matt 6:33 Seek first the kingdom of God and HIS righteousness, and ALL these things shall be added unto you.

I really hope to be able to do that, to put God 1st in every area of my life. However, as humans, we also often fall short of the glory of God. Life's struggles are inevitable....my struggle? the balance between the happiness of the short term versus the eternal. And like every greedy individual, i keep telling God, i want both....like a spoilt-brat whining at the wise parent. God says - make the right choice, take the right steps, be obedient and overflowing blessings will await. I know exactly what this is all about....I only need to take that bold step which i know i struggle deep within my heart. Only God knows....

Weekend Blues

Well...i've been wanting to start a blog for the longest time but i just didn't and couldn't becos i've been so busy and largely becos i am really really nuts abt computer and the internet. Tried to create a blog site a number of times but always get stuck somehow so i never really bother to publicise it. This is my errr 3rd attempt (shhhh i've been too proud to ask for help can?) and i pray that it will be final "trial" becos it better work!

Well...1st of all, this being my 1st official blog....i wanna dedicate it to my Dear...he's been really sweet and i must say he has been a wonderful blessing to my life... :) Well .... much to his dismay =p here's our pic:

Dear: promise we'll take a nicer pic together ya? BUT - he does still look GOOD here, doesn't he?

Well, to those who are used to reading blogs that are philosophical or "cheem" or full of liners in riddles, rest assured, mine will be "truly me" - sincere, passionate and down to earth from one and only "complain Queen"...haha if you know what i mean :)

well...abt weekend blues....ya, today is the 1st day in approx 14 mths that cg is no longer held at my hse. Feeling a sense of loss becos of it...maybe its also a chance for my room to get back to the pigsty condition again LoL.

Oh ya! And finally we don't have to go view hses again...been doing so weekends after weekends...its case close becos we got our place!!! Thank God for the wonderful place he has lead us to!

Didn't go for mamaJ's party...feeling a bit bad. Lazy - didn't go for step class that i booked, much to Dear's dismay again....i better watch my diet b4 i start piling the kilos again!

Feeling frustrated with myself for not putting all the plans of the day to completion. 心有余力不足。

Going cell gp this evening .... hopefully it will be a refreshing way to put an end to all the unsuccessful attempts to keep the weekend fufilling.