Year of Transitions

In January this year, i moved on to a new job...it is really exciting and challenging for me after being in my last job for close to 3 years. Then later in the month, i moved house, it was tiring and stressful, having to pack 10 years of stuff and yet do it only on weekends as i can't take leave with my new job.

Other than these 2 major transitions, my church also moved from the far west to the far east. Service and cell group timings changed. Ministry practices and sessions change in time and frequency. Same for bible study classes. I felt my whole time-table going real bonkus. Just like every other human, i needed time to adjust to changes. In fact, i think i am one of those that probably needed a bit more time than others to get used to changes.

Here i am, with everything just thronging towards me...i just don't know how to manage every aspect of my life well....i felt i had to give priority to something and well....i chose to put in time and effort on my job. It has taken up quite a fair bit of my time. I sometimes wonder if i am obsessed with work becos i am thinking about my work even when i am not at work! I wanted to give my best in everything i am doing becos i enjoy what i am doing, i am very happy to be in this job and i want to do well!

However, i think my spiritual life suffered. I no longer had time to go for regular cell group meetings, ministry or bible study classes. Yet, how best can i juggle so many things, i wonder?

Then came yet another transition. News broke out that our cell group had to disperse because it wasn't growing. What used to be comfortable was being taken away. I wasn't shocked or disappointed. I just aniticipated that changes may be better. I was positive about it and was looking forward to my new cell group, thinking it will help me better since i was also going downhill in my spiritual walk anyway. I also believe that though me and my cell group friends are separated, we can still maintain our friendships by keeping in contact...

Well...eventually i think i am rather disappointed. Somehow me and 2 others who were allocated to this new cell group didn't feel very comfortable. We are now like "orphans" floating...i've been in church since 1997 and yet now every weekend when i go for service, i wonder which service do i belong to? Where shall i go for debrief? I just cannot believe that there isn't a cell group that we can fit in when we come from such a big church!

Yet, i want to look to God despite all these. I still enjoy every service i attend...yesterday's service message was awesome! It's powerful...I will keep on holding on....

Clarification

Well...after my last entry, apparently there a few friends who are so worried that the person am describing could be someone they know...

Unless you really gossiped about me, are an attention seeker and a hypocrite over and above everything that had been mentioned,

Any similarities in siutations are mere coincidence.

P/s: Haha ... on a lighter note, am glad to find out that i actually have so many ardent fans, who are so updated with my blog entries....thanks! =)

Focusing on the Sincere-Hearted in a world filled with Hypocrities

I once know a lady...hmmm not sure if i should even call her a friend. I regarded her as my friend but she has everything against me for no rhyme or reason. She seems to be always trying hard to gain attention from everyone in everything that she does. I believe she is probably seeking affirmation and popularity becos of her dissatisfaction and unhappiness in life deep down. I guess so because of the responsibility she has to take up at home, with her father down with cancer and all. I tried to be nice and understanding to her but she just appears to be nice to me superficially. Recently, i found out she has been gossiping behind my back. My first impression? Well...i think she is really very free and very shallow to be making those comments. Also, i wish she could think about the statement "Do unto others what you want others to do unto you". She will be in my prayers - for peace in her heart in everything that she says and does.

Then there is these 2 other friends i know. They have once been close to me, sharing my joy, my sorrows...we've had our nice chats and fun times...but recently i found out that they have been also gossiping behind my back....Aren't these people hypocrities?

Having said that, i am glad i still have many good friends and a suportive family who have stood by me all these years. They were there to comfort me when i was down, help me in times of need and were there to share my joy during happy times. Indeed, time can make one tell if a friend is true or not. I've learnt that i shouldn't waste time on hypocritical and superficial people, but to treasure those genuine and sincere friends around me.

I will be strong

I've learnt not to put my trust on mankind but to set my eyes on God.
I've learnt that I can be independent and not be dependent on any human being.
I've learnt that life is not a bed of roses.
I've learnt that no human's words are eternal.
Above all, i've survived the worst of storms and i know the experience gained can take me through another.

Happy times can remain as memories. Sad times serve as a reminder for future experiences.

Another packed weekend

Another weekend where i tried unsuccessfully to catch up on sleep. Nonetheless, i had a fufilling weekend. Fri night was farewell party for Nic. shIan and me joined pretty late so we only had one drink with Nic and the rest at Clarke Quay. Something simple but am glad that i got to know Nic better in the last few months... cool guy! So envious of him to be going back to UK.



Sat was kinda sad i had to go teardown at an event in the evening. Was glad everything was done very quickly. Finally got to meet up with another of my best friend, Annika and her twin sister, Lena who was visiting from Germany with her bf, Andreas. Had dinner with the three of them plus Mogan, Annika's boyfriend. I was really tired that day and had a bad headache. Was kinda dread to be out anyway. However, was really glad to have a nice meal with them at The Rice Table at Suntec City. Food was great with awesome variety at a reasonable price. Thereafter, was persuaded by them to go to a new pub at Mohd Sultan. Well, these days no one really goes to Mohd Sultan anymore...its really quiet there....but we went to this new place called Daybed bar...the whole place is furnished in white and the lightings change colour every now and then....its a really nice chill out place...had a good time catching up with them and though its the first time am meeting Lena, we hit it off really well....Also met up with some of their other friends...and as usual...i am the only Chinese...hahaha.....Gonna miss Annika once she goes back to Germany sometime this June. She made a lot of effort to cheer me up and lend a listening ear to me whenever i was down. She also always made sure she never leaves me out when am out with her bunch of friends...indeed she is a friend that is hard to come by....Guess which is Annika in the pic?



Celebrated mum's bdae on Sunday evening. We went to Spring Court restaurant and it was nice to have Ah Gong and Ah Ma joining us...all of us couldn't stop laughing becos the 2 boys were just so cute...they keep us entertained by their every move...from their excitement to blow bdae candles to their gluttony state when eating...so cute...Gareth was all smiles and in the mood to take pic. He even went round to give every one of us hugs and kisses. Gavin was less active that day but the cake cutting still prove to be an excitement for him. Too bad CJ was down with fever that day, otherwise, we would really have a full attendance gathering :)