Only God Knows & Understands

Some incidents happened this week which made me very upset. I tried all ways and means to get over it. From chatting with Friends, hanging out late and even burying myself at work. On the surface, i appear as per normal. However, inside me, i feel like i'm struggling quite a bit - totally exhausted and suffocated. I think if i ever get the chance to really pour out my sorrows to someone who can really listen to me and understand my situtation, i think i can really weep like a baby. Indeed growing up is a tough process. So much to face up to.

Today there was a pastor from US who came so we had a session at church. I was half hearted about going. However, a voice deep inside tells me "Don't run away from God, run TO God"! Indeed, i made the effort to rush down for the session.

I felt so at peace at church. I felt so joyful singing and jumping during praise! I felt so touched during worship. I felt God was listening during prayer. All these wonderful experience cannot be guranteed when we invest our time on humans. Definitely, we need friends and companionship, but i am affirmed once again, that we need God in our lives, more than anyone or anything. He's the only one that is the same yesterday, today and forevermore. He's also the one who knows exactly what we go through and understands and the situations we face like no one else.

With God in my life, i felt a surge of new found strength, to carry on facing the toughness in life, the disappointments and the hurts due to humans, who have fallen short of the glory of God. Indeed, may the joy of the Lord be with me always - no matter what phase of my life, no matter who i have or do not have in my life.