Green with envy

Read a friend's blog today. She talked about her journey planning for her wedding. Well, i'm not only envious of the extravagance she and her fiancee went to in the wedding plans. Most importantly, i envy her for having a fiancee who is willing to go through the tedious planning with her, think of her every needs, likes and dislikes, dreams and expectations from proposal stage right up to the buying and renovating the house, wedding day prep etc....it just makes me wonder if i will ever meet a guy like that in my lifetime.

Read about how they celebrated each others' birthdays, about the surprise they gave each other and how much they appreciated each others' gift knowing the pinch each other felt in paying for the present. And haha, she got the cake i wanted for my bdae but i didn't...so i'm really really green with envy - yet! i am happy for her to have found her man :) All the best, pal!

Reading her blog makes me think, how do we know we already found Mr Right and how do we know that the relationship is ready to mature to marriage? It sure takes 2 hands to clap and both parties need to be willing to give and take and be committed to each other i guess. Indeed. Easier said than done.

Today another envious feeling struck me. Saw / heard how some friends keep getting one promotion after another or are highly valued and recognised by their management. Some are simply capable, some got the right opportunities, whichever - i'm happy for these friends....but it also set me thinking....how long am i going to slog at where i am before i move on to greater heights? How much is enough? I really don't know ... If you ask me, i'm happy where i am, just that when i compare with my peers, i see myself nowhere there....really as the chinese saying goes - Ren Bi Ren Qi Si Ren!