Full of worries and anxiety

I've had 12 days MC due to Dengue and due to go back to work tomorrow. On one hand, I am glad I am finally well enough to go back to work and contribute to the team. On the other hand, i feel a sense of loss having been on MC for so long. What's more, I was only barely a mth into the new job. I am still so new to the job and yet on MC for so long. The sense of guilt and worry just dawned on me. Plus, not sure if i can get the full understanding from my boss and colleagues - that i really didn't mean to fall sick and for so long!

Worse still, I am due to go to SGH for a minor surgery for the removal of the cyst on the back of my ear. May need to take MC again! I feel so scared to tell my boss that tomorrow!

Dear God...

I pray for favour of my boss and teammates, that they will understand for my absence from work. I pray for speedy and total healing of all illnesses and free from pain for the removal of the cyst. Please watch over me, that I may be healthy and not have to take MC for a long, long time. Holy spirit, be with me so that I can shine for Jesus at work! AMEN!

From the counter on my blog, can see that our wedding is just over 6 mths away...we are starting to be a little more involved with the planning. I just went for my first gown selection appointment yesterday....totally disappointed. What the salesperson promised was far from what it was in reality. There seems to be so much to do for the planning of the wedding and many a times, i feel so stucked. Its so tiring to juggle so many things together ... I just dream of a smooth wedding day that is fairy-tale like =)